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My painting practice combines abstract Chinese character and self-rebalancing idea from therapeutic art. Together to create artwork through a highly concentrate mark making process, in which I try to lead myself forgot the intention of making painting and catch a new level of consciousness - ecstasy. My research includes: how to split the Chinese character to signal element, the rebalancing function of art as therapy, and the reason, effect of doing repetition mark making.   

 

I enjoy hand writing and reading sentences rather than listening, watching video without substitute, because I feel words/sentences have more power on expressing/impressing. In my painting I abstract Chinese character into a minimal way which is “|||” - three parallel short lines. I want to keep the activity of writing and do not want to show an actual words/character, at the same time. Suffering severe insomnia has been a common daily situation for me. Everyday before I fall asleep I probably go through a psychological phenomenon called “Repetition Compulsion”. I cannot control my mind to re-living a situation that existed before. It is like a brain storm with endless chaos. And during this uncontrollable day-life repetition I might feel guilty, shame, awkward, mostly bad emotion. Because I keep judging the rationality of my activity during this repetition.

 

In this circumstance, my current artworks firstly present my negative emotion/thought through “|||” repetition mark making process as a way of writing sentences. Then during the super concentrated process as a kind of machine working, I start to forget surroundings and bad mood. Finally, I paint until ecstasy. I feel joy and enjoyable for the mechanised activity. The final result of my artwork is full of happiness. I called it training, testing and rebalancing, because the time, mood, and result is unknown until I finished. I am doing an art therapy for myself and trying to introduce this creating activity to more people who might be trapped in a bad mood and need self-salvation.